Can’t Draw? False!
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Wikipedia explains that drawing is the creation of visual images on a surface using drawing tools – for example, pencil, pen, sanguine, charcoal, or chalk. The person engaged in drawing is a draftsman. The end result of drawing is a drawing.
A visual image is any shape that is visible on a surface (e.g., paper) with the eye – line, circle, tree, house…
Can I make them? Yes, so I can draw! But why do I then claim that I can’t and what do I really mean by that? This question came to my mind when I picked up a pencil after a long time. I tried to find a picture to draw. An hour passed, then I closed the computer and got frustrated: “I can’t draw so beautifully! I know I can’t get those details right like I see in the picture, and overall the lines will be crooked and disproportionate! Arrrrrhh!!!”
Still, I dragged myself to the drawer, found paper and pencils, and sat down at the table. I just started drawing lines. Then one thought came and another, and I started from scratch. Ideas changed on the go. The longer I doodled, the more I noticed that I was focusing on one detail, then another, and suddenly I knew what was happening. It was an internal process for something to become visible.
And then I realized that I limited myself earlier with “can’t.” Stubbornly, I started doing it until the limits disappeared. Oppaa! Of course!!!! Creativity has no limits or restrictions. Creativity has no prescriptions. The only one who does that is ME. Because I have expectations, conditions, and a clear idea of what it should become for me to like it. Then I can’t criticize myself and maybe dare to show it to others. Hello, hello, “inner critic” – one of the inner selves of a person who ensures that I don’t make mistakes because mistakes are punished. And no one wants to be punished.
The inner critic protects/takes care that the outer world accepts you into it, so you are not too different from others, so you can BELONG. The conditions under which I learn to belong are set by the childhood growth environment. On one hand, the critic is useful for survival as long as life depends on someone else (-s). As an adult, however, the critic is often an obstacle to self-development.
Congratulations! One of my shadows – BELONGING. The child within me still feels that if they are different, they will be left alone, and no one will want them. I become the laughingstock of others or even pushed away. At the moment of this realization, I made a choice: “I am tired of fighting to belong to those who set conditions for me to belong.” NO! First, I want to belong to myself, create what comes from the heart, and share it with people who want to grow into who they were created to be in this world – as themselves and differently, to cooperate and create themselves. Belong without conditions as I am and as you are.
Yes, I can draw – on paper and in my life. Creating visually visible images, on any “surface,” with any “tool.” My life is a canvas, and I am the drawing tool.